Lifespan

If you can decide your lifespan, how long would you want to live? Wil you want to live longer or shorter? If can, I hope not to live for too long..
Thk god my great grandmum has recover from the illness, she already 90 years old, one of her eye has blind, another eye has done laser before, although can see, but the tear will always drop from the eye. She has entered hopspital at wednesday, because her stomach suddenly bleed, she non stop vomit out the blood clot, doctor said that because she ate too much panadol. Then, her vein also swollen to 3cm compared with normal, doctor said if continue swollen to 7cm will be very danger. The symptom of the vein's swollen is her stomach will pain. My great grandmum really stomach pain for 1 day, but luckily, not because of the symptom, is because of the she cant release all of the urine.
Having long lifespan so how??They need suffer more sickness than others, they face more difficulties in their life. What illness they have not face?? My great grandmum already counted as very healthy, she stil can walk, talk, eat. Some people, just 50 smt, they already start having signal of sickness.
So, if can, I not really wish to have a long lifespan, just wish to live happily and healthy~=)

True Friends

Since the day I borned to this world, im not clever to social with others. When primary, I blur alway, just like I live in my own world. When secondary, because afraid of my dad, I alway lock myself in my room, wait until my dad went to work, I just dare to go downstair. Hence, I try my best to find "love" from outside. I mix myself with many many friends, i never offend them, I even tolerate with anyone, I never angry or quarrel with my friends before too, because friends are very important to me. In my heart, friends even important than my bf. I rather reject my bf request also will not reject my friends, I even willing mix with my friends, spend the time with my friends, I also do not want with my bf. Friend, please....do not angry me, I really not mean that to you, don't treat me so cool..seriously, i afraid of the way you treat me now.

I know I'm soli to you..

I know I shouldnt dump you alone..

I know I have break the promise between us..

but plz believe me..I really don't hope that..

but plz trust me..I really nvr mean to dump you..

but plz believe me..I nvr want to treat you badly..

I really don't hope this matter make a change in our friendship..friend, i waiting the real of you come back..plz 4give me..

..soli soli soli soli..