what will YOU choose?

what will b your decision?
Friend or your partner?
Am i over care my friend?till i never care of YOUR feeling?
Too many obstacle between us..
AND..
Both of us are totally don't dare close in front of any friends.
I don't know how to pass through it.
Who can teach me?>.<
I feel sad and disappointed.
If you cant did it, please don't promise me.
YOU break the promise again and again.
Its third time.
I know your excuse might be don't want me to worry.
Can i don't accept this excuse?
YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IM THINKING AT ALL~

stil will heart pain~

although this is the ending that last time i wanted...but den when avting go smooth as what i wan last time,..i cant accept it now~
how cum u can so faz put down?
how cum u can so cruel to me now?
how cum you can treat me just like normal until cant normal fren....
how u make it??
Special fren??what mean by this??
avting 'll helped me last time..
but now totally don't bother about me..
some more lik non of ur business...
how u make it???plzzz!!!
tel me how??????????????
avtime i chat wif you..
i sure 'll emo...
u make me feel sad of the way u chat wif me..
u make me clear of u not longer mine anymor~
u make me feel hurt lots...

L-O-N-E-L-Y

Once ppl free most of the time,
annoyance is the "friend" that beside you~
many question also will pop out in ur mind~
who r your best friend?
today i just knew, not only me cant find my best friend,
other too~=)
mayb friend a lot,
but you want to find a friend tat hav the same thinking and same opinion wif u~
is hard~
many ppl willing to be the listener..
but Who started the trouble should end it end（解铃人终须系铃人）
how ppl trying their best to comfort you~
you ll nvr know~
you will nvr take it as advice~
coz you r the litigant~
no one can understand your feeling~
although understand~
also cant help you much~
still need you to calm and think it yourself~=)

wish all ppl happy all the time ya~^^

醒了

在伤心的时候，还真难找到可以诉苦的人
习惯有你的安慰，现在的我还蛮难适应。
甜言蜜语归甜言蜜语，
有些事情变了，
甜言蜜语只是愚蠢的承诺。
多么动听到的话，听了就算。
你不能做到，那就别答应。
不曾期盼你会答应，可是你答应了却食言,
就连我在哭在闹变扭，你也不知道了。
我还在盼什么呢？
现在我需要你，你又在哪里？=）

face the truth

你的生活离我越来越远了,
我再也不了解你了,
我和你确确实实是不同世界的人,
是你勉强迁就我的世界,
放弃你,
真的是对的选择..
你也过得比较快乐,
而我, 需要时间习惯没有你的生活..
我要控制自己不能再依赖你了..=)
我会减少去看属于我们的部落格..
因为我需要面对事实,
那里不再有新的留言了..
我也清楚你已经开始习惯没有我的生活..

Lifespan

If you can decide your lifespan, how long would you want to live? Wil you want to live longer or shorter? If can, I hope not to live for too long..
Thk god my great grandmum has recover from the illness, she already 90 years old, one of her eye has blind, another eye has done laser before, although can see, but the tear will always drop from the eye. She has entered hopspital at wednesday, because her stomach suddenly bleed, she non stop vomit out the blood clot, doctor said that because she ate too much panadol. Then, her vein also swollen to 3cm compared with normal, doctor said if continue swollen to 7cm will be very danger. The symptom of the vein's swollen is her stomach will pain. My great grandmum really stomach pain for 1 day, but luckily, not because of the symptom, is because of the she cant release all of the urine.
Having long lifespan so how??They need suffer more sickness than others, they face more difficulties in their life. What illness they have not face?? My great grandmum already counted as very healthy, she stil can walk, talk, eat. Some people, just 50 smt, they already start having signal of sickness.
So, if can, I not really wish to have a long lifespan, just wish to live happily and healthy~=)

True Friends

Since the day I borned to this world, im not clever to social with others. When primary, I blur alway, just like I live in my own world. When secondary, because afraid of my dad, I alway lock myself in my room, wait until my dad went to work, I just dare to go downstair. Hence, I try my best to find "love" from outside. I mix myself with many many friends, i never offend them, I even tolerate with anyone, I never angry or quarrel with my friends before too, because friends are very important to me. In my heart, friends even important than my bf. I rather reject my bf request also will not reject my friends, I even willing mix with my friends, spend the time with my friends, I also do not want with my bf. Friend, please....do not angry me, I really not mean that to you, don't treat me so cool..seriously, i afraid of the way you treat me now.

I know I'm soli to you..

I know I shouldnt dump you alone..

I know I have break the promise between us..

but plz believe me..I really don't hope that..

but plz trust me..I really nvr mean to dump you..

but plz believe me..I nvr want to treat you badly..

I really don't hope this matter make a change in our friendship..friend, i waiting the real of you come back..plz 4give me..

..soli soli soli soli..